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The timetable looms large

Isn’t it so obvious that we need a paradigm shift for life.
And there. I made the same mistake again. I spoke for you.
I need a paradigm shift for life.

Everyday of my last three months of joblessness, I have gotten up in the morning and read the morning papers with my morning cup of tea. I have watched the movies that I have always wanted to watch but never had the time. I watched and re-watched runs and re-runs of my favourite TV shows and lazed around the house till I got exhausted of lazing around. I have lived a life at my own pace. Applied at quite a few jobs. Got rejected by many of them. I rejected many of them because of the pay or the location or whatever. on the whole, I lived a little bit of this and a little bit of that, flanked with decisions that were difficult and irritating, I managed to pass time.

It was fine until I was shown the imaginary timetable of life. Get educated by 25. Get married by 26. Produce babies by 28 and another one by 30. Get settled by 30 was watermarked on the timetable in clear unmistakable letters.

I am already behind schedule by donkeys years. What am I to do? Run? Well. Where am I supposed to run to? Where is that one place where the time table does not apply? I figured sometime back that all roads lead to the same place. That everything is the same even after a thousand promises to be something else. So running, I realised or rather figured after some different rational calculations, was not a good idea. Run all you can, you cant escape Mr TimeTable.

Though, in hindsight, I should have ran.

If nothing, by running I would declared my war on this orderliness. I would have declared my leanings to chaos. I would have buried my head in the sand and probably found a new world beneath it. I should have ran even if there was no place to run to. I came to know, very late, that it is the act and not its consequence that is more eloquent sometimes.

Now I am stuck, between trying to run away and trying to abide with the time table. In the course of time people and places have left me. Things have changed and seem to have drifted to the horizon. The only thing that seems to have become bigger and bigger everyday is the timetable. Meeting the deadline is impossible. Not meeting it is sacrilege.

Until there is a paradigm shift, there is a danger that I’d be extinct.


About Shivangi Narayan

Dabbles in too many things at one time

4 responses to “The timetable looms large

  1. Rahul ⋅

    i can distinctly remember the emotion i felt each morning of my joblessness for 5 months ,It was a feeling of complete numbness ,nothingness ,of being a complete useless person ,even though i hated my job and tried to follow my “passion” and when that didnt give the desired results,I just went into the black hole for 5 months ..

    i think being in job(even the job which u hate)provide some sense of routine ,of being the secure feeling that things are moving ,even though they are not actually moving and we are just a part of the herd ,but being jobless is even worse than that ,i remember applying for the same jobs all over again and setting new records of pressing refresh button per sec ,

    as don draper said its really difficult to balance “wit i want vs wit is expected of me”

  2. shivangi1984 ⋅

    Hi Rahul! Thanks for your comment but here I am not talking about joblessness or the agony of the time you are away from a routine. It is about a larger ‘organised schedule of life’ that I have a problem with and which is what I have written about. Just read a little further and lemme know what you think!

  3. This time table is forced upon individuals by the society. So, whenever any individual goes against this then the person will feel out of place.
    The best response is not to care about this time table. Biologically, every individual is different so it is foolish on the part of society to expect every body to follow same time table. (sociologically bad argument). Also, it is very difficult to change the norms of society over a short period of time and that too by one individual. The best you can do is to complain which you are doing.
    Another way out is to get some remarkable success. If your success is highly valued in society then people will not highlight that “you are marrying at 30!!!!”. If Karina were a simple girl doing a small job then it would be difficult for her to marry an elder man of another religion.
    You should not be worried about this stupid timetable. Live your life as you want to live as it will give you mental satisfaction. There is no point in succumbing to this time table and live the rest of your life in pain. Make good advances in your career by focusing on work. Rest all will fall in place.

  4. @|(@$|-| ⋅

    Taking time to do nothing often brings everything into perspective. If you get satisfied you wont feel hunger inside.. n to sustain in longevity that ‘zeal-to-do’ is utmost require to those who wants to cross da limit.

    T!metable is the virtual inheritance of this society..wht u face n make decisions afterwards is harsh reality.

    @|(@$|-| …

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